Barriers

I wait for you
To barge through the door
And
Breakdown the walls
That hold you prisoner

I wait for the release
Of the first whisper
The screams will begin to flow
And the emotions that will rage

I wait
Until they shatter every barrier
And you cross the unknown

I wait
To hear the words you fear
The words that hold you captive
That contain the passion

I wait for the man
Hiding in the shadows
Of his past
That chain the man
I know exists

I wait for you
To come to me
Openly
Without deception
Barriers
Or lies

I long for the you
That hides
The man I love

Will you come to me naked
Bare
Vulnerable

Only then

Only then
Will I welcome you

Cancer Awareness Challenge (black/white) Monet’s Bridge

Light
Dark
It comes it goes
Life
Death
It ebbs
It flows
Goodness is remembered
And evil severed
A path some choose
And others only lose
In this life
We are
Too brief
For
Death is the thief
That claims
Us all
We are nothing
If
But small

Detachment

I watch in silence
As you experience
Pain
You go through the motions
Of suffering
And express your pain
Tears and heartache
No relief is coming
Your pain is
Profound
I see myself
There
But, back then
Pain was mine
And you didn’t care
There’s no attachment
Between us
I feel nothing
As I stare
With detachment

Empath…I Feel You

I am out of sorts
Not a cold or flu
Maybe the blues
I’m sad
Confused
Withdrawn
Depressed
Under stress
What I feel is intense
I don’t know why
I can’t smile
Drained of emotions
Numb
I’m too tired to care
A cycle
Never ending
Wake
Sleep
Nothing in between
This emptiness
Has disrupted my life
I don’t need to hear your story
See your face
Touch you
Or hear your heart race
I feel you
Your sorrow
The nagging questions
And regret
Please let it go
I’m ready to break
Please release me
My sanity is at stake

Rabbit Hole

I thought my heart would explode
As the tears flowed
Down my cheeks
Pain
Reached my mind
Only to find
I can’t comprehend
That there is no end
To this rabbit hole
The deeper I go
The less I see
What this is doing to me

Fear

Throat
Constricting
Fear has
Emotions conflicting
Vision is jaded
All colors are fading
Thoughts
Are fleeting
As my world
Starts receding
Into a blackness
I drift
A tortuous abyss
Of so many
“What if’s”
In this living hell
Is where I currently dwell

Depression

How dark can pain be
How much pain
Can One endure

When the anger
Dissipates
The rage subsides
I am naked
Vulnerable
Cold
Body
Shivering
The pain
Seeps out
The tears begin
To flow
Releasing
A river
Of sorrow
An endless storm

I ache from outside in
It is unbearable
It screams
It’s clawing
Attacking
Fighting
To escape
This hell
There is
No air
No light
The pain
Dark
All consuming

It strangles
My conscience
Unable to think
Only feel
Feel
The torture
Betrayal
Aching
Pain
Excruciating
Exploding
Reliving
An endless agony
I can’t breathe
Between my sobs
No reprieve

There is no time
No space
Only heartache
In this miserable place

Sound

This story broke my heart and is wide spread in Bali…her name is Kadek and she has no voice, no sound…

Sound…
Inside
Deep
Where it’s dark
There’s a sound
Faint
Testing
Her voice
She quakes
When it’s released

It brings
Relief
To hear it again
Comfort
That it still lives
And strength
To stand

Down too long
Ready to fight
Hear her
Speak
Hear her shout
Ready to release
Free her silence
Take back
Life stolen
Fight with all that’s broken

A strength
That’s been forged
By evil
And saved by love
Hear the sound
That’s been found
(My prayers that her cries are heard)

Empty Vessel

Bring on the torture
The sweet death
Your hidden depths
Unchain your passion
Your raging storm
Give it to me
I want it all

I will
Vanquish
The past
Consume
Your pain
Release the heartache
Treasure your name
Give birth anew
All for you
To
Believe my love
Forever true

Will you take my hand
Give me your trust
I want it all
Your empty shell
I’ll
Rewrite your story
Erase your hell
Free of fear
Free of will
That’s how I’ll take you
Empty
Mine to fill
© Violet

Whisper in the wind

I try to hold on
I’m sinking
With the weight
Of my love
A heavy burden
I need to let go
Release the grief
Of keeping you
Too close
Loving you
Too hard
Holding on
Too long
My voice quivers
As I whisper your name
And my body shrivers
With the emptiness
Of the words now
Gone with the wind
© Violet